Day 3: I Have Problems With Spacing

Hello once again to all of you! Currently, I am at my best friend's (I just totally imagined that song from The Hangover) house, hanging out. Well, I was hanging out, because he has gone to bed, and I can only seem to get anything accomplished with no one around. Such is life, I guess.

I think I should start out this blog by telling any of you that don't know, that I have ADHD. I am not going to explain what it means, as you HAVE to know what it means from all of the millions of jokes rolling around the streets these days, all of which are true. I am actually happy to admit that a good majority of them are true, mostly because I find all of them hilarious.

As a result of my ADHD, when I was younger, I was pretty much the outcast of the school. This is not because the other children found out that I had ADHD and decided that this made me a crazy person, but because at that point in my life, I could not control myself enough to show people who I really am. This led to me being a little socially awkward, and a lot self-conscious. I really felt that only a couple people, mostly my family, were the only people I could trust in this world.

I am not in any way trying to make this into a sob story, I just figured I should give you a little background on myself, and where I am going with this. I digress. Eventually, however, I evened out, and I learned that kicking people in the face is really only funny the first time. As I grew as a person, and my self-awareness grew as well, I began to get less and less paranoid, and let people into my life. Upon this, I have now noticed a couple of things.

There is no one on this entire world that is a complete loner. We all need human interaction of some kind, whether it be in person, over the internet, on the TV, what have you. We have all heard of the occasional person who believes that they are a sociopath, or a doctor says they are, that they don't need to be around people. I don't believe this is true at all. In fact, I believe the exact opposite of that. It makes sense to me, that as a young child, (I'm going Freudian on your asses now), this person experienced something that made them this way. Maybe they were beaten as a child, felt like they were not loved. Maybe they were in foster care, and they never had anyone to call parents, to give them what they needed, to tell them they cared about them. As a result of this, these people have grown up believing that they don't need anyone, that everyone is going to betray them, and that they don't know what love is. If this is the case, I would have to say that human interaction is just what this person needs. They need to know that not everyone out in the world is going to pick on them, or turn they're back on them and leave them in the dark.

I truly believe that without human interaction we would go insane. In fact, this has been proven many times, with many people. There are people who are put in prison, they do something bad, and they get put into solitary confinement. After a month, these so called hardened criminals are let out, to go back to their peers in the jail. These criminals come out different though, and it is not different in a good way. They may come out, and act quiet for a couple of months, not cause any trouble or anything. But you can tell, underneath it all, that something has changed. They are not sane in any way. They have been locked in a room by themselves for a month. In that month, they can think about anything they want to. They think about life, they think about people. They may start to think that maybe they don't need other people, and maybe other people don't need. They dwell on this for hours at a time, until finally; it becomes a reality in their mind. They come out, start looking around. They don't like people. People put him in that hell hole. People should pay for it.

One last thing I wanted to say about human interaction, is that I love it. I can honestly say that being with other people is one of the greatest joys in my life, and one of the most important. I grow from it, and I have a good time. To any of my friends reading this, thank you.

Side Note: sorry if the spacing and crap is a little off, its 1 am, and im having issues with this. clearly. ughh.